How did your smalls find their first days of school, be it reception or returning? How did you find it?
I was supposed to follow up my pre-school start blog last week but (1) I’d only actually done the school run properly twice and (2) it was not going well for all concerned and I was a bit all over the shop. I thought it best to give it a little longer, to see how we settled in after a full week, and to wait until my emotions had turned themselves down a few notches.
Day 1 and I found Toby excitingly putting on his school uniform at 6.30am. This was promising and my pessimistic side gave way to optimism that drop off would be uneventful. He would could bouncing in without giving me a backward glance whilst he got stuck into some lego building and friend making. Should’ve stuck with pessimism, it was heartbreaking.
After having secured a parking spot a good hike from the school entrance we entered a room clambering with excited/crying small humans and their accompanying responsible adults (less clambering but also a mix of excited/crying). Bringing Darren with me for support we divided and conquered, him attending to the tiny human whilst I tried to find something/someone to grab Toby’s attention. Sitting down at a table full of lego I tried to introduce him to another little boy who was also reluctant to let his mum go. One look at her and I noticed we were both sporting the same teary eyes but trying to keep it together for our smalls. Turns out we live a few doors away so we chatted about a visit to the park for the lads to meet properly.
Despite my attempts to leave they ultimately had to peel him off me, pleading with me to stay and I just had to walk away listening to his sobs. I like to think my sunglasses gave an air of rock n roll to my look rather than the practical reality that they were hiding my tears.
And then I was at a bit of a loss as to what to do with myself. Fortunately I’ve got a back up small human so my day continued with her. I think it was the summer that threw me as Toby had been at preschool for 4 days a week up until then, for longer days. I guess it was just a case of finding our new normal and getting back into some sort of routine.
The following days were just as eventful and when it happened again on the Monday I just felt broken emotionally. It didn’t help that the tiny human was waking at all sorts of silly times in the night so my emotional resilience reserve tank was running on empty. I can’t really begin to explain how sad I felt on that Monday seeing him so sad other than it physically hurt. I genuinely just wanted to take him home with me but obviously that wasn’t an option.
Fortunately the week did get progressively better and culminated in a smiling Toby waving goodbye from the door.
I’m still getting the standard response to my “What did you do today?” Toby – “I don’t know” or “Nothing”. Once I’ve figured out how to use the school’s portal with the million (slight exaggeration) passwords they’ve given me I’ll be able to look for myself.
Today was another difficult Monday but I was expecting it after the weekend. It was still a little sad to see but more manageable.
If you have a sad small human I’ve learnt that it’s better not to prolong the agony. Say your goodbyes then like ripping off a plaster leave them with a teacher and go. As much as it goes against all my instincts to scope him up into a hug I know it’s kinder for him to just go as 5 minutes later I’m told he’s happily interacting with the other children.
So Week 1 done – boom. I haven’t lost his school uniform or inherited someone else’s. We’ve got two party invites already so I best start thinking about remortgaging to fund the other 28(ish) presents. I’m booked onto a training course in an attempt to help this IT illiterate mum navigate the school portal. Oh and I’ve made a few new friends and been invited to a book club.
It’s early days but I’m very impressed with what I’ve seen of the school so far and I know he’s going to love it there. In the meantime we’ll just take it one day at a time as that’s all we can do.
I’d love to hear how you and your small humans are getting on so come join me for a chat in the group this Wednesday at 8.00pm. https://www.facebook.com/groups/2126378154353824/